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I haven't practised much on my practise pads in the past week (wow, lots of 'p's in that sentence). It's just hard to bang away on that little rubber tire with my gorgeous stix.
I had my second lesson on Friday. I had to get myself there on the bus. Mom won't drive me anymore. And it was fucking annoying trying to get there on TIME, since there was an accident on Carling, and he took a detour, and it was fucking rush hour, etc.. I was freaking out. But I ended up getting there at five after five.. >:P The lesson still ended at 5:30 though..
The lesson being only half an hour pisses me OFF. I don't feel like I get enough DONE in half an hour.. and I SOOOO want to play the shit out of those drums, that whole set... but I'm only on the snare still.. <:(
I know if I want to get good on the snare by practising at home on the pad, then I just have to DO IT. I mean, it's not unpleasant, using the practise pad. But I would SO MUCH RATHER have my own gorgeous Tama snare, 14" diameter, 5" depth, on a double braced stand.. so I could practise on that, instead of previously mentioned rubber tire.
When mom and me were going to Future Shop tonight to buy my new headphones, I was talking to her about all the crap that's been stressing me out (incl school, frustration about drums, not having a job, worrying about my money running out, etc.. I unload a lot on her, and she listens.) I said that if I trade in my guitar and amp at Song Bird then I would have enough to buy a decent drum set. But she said some shit about how that would be 'jumping the gun'.. and I know exactly what she meant. SHE DOES NOT WANT A DRUM SET IN THIS HOUSE. And I want a set more than anything. See, she's supportive of this as long as it doesn't BUG her. As long as there's no big noise coming up from the basement, as long as I only play at my lessons..
WELL EXCUSE ME BUT THAT'S NOT HOW THE FUCK IT WORKS. I need to practice AT HOME on a decent set WHEN I WANT TO. I would almost ask my teacher (Rob, yes I found out. I had to ASK HIM again, after my second lesson, since I forgot his name..:P) to tell my mom at some point that "OK She needs a set at home if she's going to get better, if she's going to practice, if she's going to ever be in a band, she NEEDS a drum set." I just need her to understand that.
But she won't. She must think these lessons are like fucking classical training or some shit. Cuz she's all hung up on "OK so how are these beats that you're learning? Are they complicated?" and I'm like "No, I'm learning stuff in 4:4 time right now, that's all - the rudimentaries. I'm not training to play JAZZ you know." >:P
I practiced on my snare pad again yesterday though. I had to force myself to do it. Rob gave me a 'homework assignment' but I cant read the notes he wrote - I dunno, it's too vague.. <:(
WOW this was so emo.